Monday, October 12, 2009
with love(:
i am feeling really guilty today, yesterday.
and till the day i fully changed, i'll be guilty.
pinkied with mr bao yesterday.
but it didnt lightened my sentence of guilt.
i was really unreasonable yest.
probably one of the most unreasonable times ever.
i was crazy, uber siao.
probably due to my menses that came today.
but thats not an excuse though.
my dear had to wake up so early in the morn for his last driving review.
on a sunday morn.
where everybody was slping so soundly.
but im pissed with him for not able to stay up to watch true horror with me.
how stupid am i.
worst still, he came to my place after his morn drive.
bought mac, my fav.
set up everything but to see me ignoring him.
for such a minor issue.
i dont know what i was thinking but it was horribly disgusting.
and after that, i was so upset for shitty reasons.
and left the house.
leaving him at my place.
i sat at the void deck near my place and played sudoku.
for like 1 hr plus before he came down and look for me.
aint i horrible ?
after all these, my dear is still willing to forgive me.
who the hell on planet earth can stand anyone like me ?
but my love is still willing to accept.
suffered in silence because he didnt want my mom to worry.
no matter how harsh i was, he kept quiet.
because he didnt wna go back of his promise to change.
not to nag anymore.
not to hold my hand so tight it hurts.
to give me time to reflect.
he didnt forget a single bit.
like how he's willing to change for me, i want to do the same.
i will do it darling.
im so sorry.
terribly sorry.
i know u truly accepted my apology yest.
but still, im so sorry.
and to cheryl,
CONGRATULATIONS love (:
u can drive me ard alrd (:
congrats (:
happy for u (:
to my fav don-ra, do-ran (x
my darlings im so so happy for u guys.
my bestfriend and my love's bestfriend are now bestfriends(:
*winks*
no doubt night safari works wonder (:
to dora bestfriend,
this road is gonna be tough at times but no fear, i'll be walking with u thru.
marcus always tells me that there's nth unsolvable.
trust him on that.
for anything, pls tell me ya (:
and to myself,
ftt is in 2 days time and ure still blogging here.
u wanna die or u wna die ?
hurry go study la !
but before that, sims for an hr !
hehe,
meeting the teng's for a seminar this evening.
"finding inner happiness"
i hope i can (:
